There is silence and then there is silence
and then there are nights like these.
Where nothing is going to take it away
it is all that it’s become.
Today I remembered a time
where I was missed when I was away.
Where someone waited for me at the door
and kissed me goodbye when I left.
I wish that you could have understood
me the way I knew you.
I wish that you could have listened
and heard what I never said.
I heard everything that you said to me
and the words that never came.
And I let you be who you needed to be
even though it took away all that I am.
I only ever wanted to take good care of you
to keep you safe and warm.
I wanted to give you the space
to find your way back to me.
That never happened you just kept looking
for things and someone else.
When all I ever wanted
was for you to have the choice.
Well, you had the choice and took it
and I didn’t have a voice.
I surrendered it to you those years ago
when you cried to me in the dark.
I’m sorry now for what I gave
sorry for what I’ve lost.
I’m sorry tonight as I sit here remembering
how much you made me feel.