Stand before me prostrate
arms extended
and beg
Beg that I will understand
Beg me now for mercy
Beg that I will see
You have laid before me
a multitude of sins
Ugly twisted
representations
of something you want to
call love
You have shown me how you
have been
misguided
misinformed
and mindlessly lead down
the road
where the devil has laid
her trap
You have shown me weakness
and the careless
degradation
of all that I call holy
You have given me no
choice
but to become the
Christian martyr
and I must call forth
the hypocrisy that I hold
so dear
I will throw ugly words
upon you
in the hopes that they
break the skin
I will use slanderous
language
to bruise you
at the depths of your soul
I will strike from within
wrapping my dagger with
declarations of love
to conceal the breadth of
my attack
I will deny you
disown you
and try to destroy you
for telling me who you are
I will stand in judgment
of you
because I can speak
for God
ugh..i have lived this...i have a letter that i have kept where someone that i cared for used god as a sword to beat the crap out of me....the only reason i keep it is a reminder i dont ever want to be like that...
ReplyDeleteI can empathize with your sentiments and though I don't know the whole details and facts, my personal belief is that judgement is not ours to give and serve ~ I leave that with the Ultimate Giver and Taker of Life ~
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Grace
Powerful and heartfelt writing about something that has clearly affected youvery strongly. Like Grace, I try to leave judging to someone whose judgements are reliable, rather than based on prejudice, or simply from loudly denouncing a sin that I don't commit, so as to cover my own shortcomings with noise.
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