There are things like words and
places
sounds and smells are such
things.
Things like memories, things
like visions
thought provoking things.
It’s amazing how many things
affect me
how many things set me off.
How many times a day I find
myself
mindfully drifting off.
At first it was things that we
shared
things that were part of our
life.
Things that were part and
parcel,
the fabric of our life.
There were moments and days and
time that passed
and all of it bound by these
things.
Now the moments have become
staggering reminders
that are simply filled up with
these things.
It’s not even so much the
reality
of the time that together we
spent.
It’s now the cost of a lifetime
lost
and forevers that will never be
spent.
So the triggers are pulled and
the buttons pushed
each day by so many things.
And I am learning to walk
through the pain and the loss
that is wrapped up in all of
those things.
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for dVersepoets.com
ugh...that is tough...def. not easy to go through this...there rings hope in your closure...like a path leading to a new future and toward light
ReplyDeletethank you Claudia~ I'm trying to keep to that path you speak of:)
Deletei feel you...our pain tends to tinge all the parts of our lives....the things we once did but no more...some hard emotion in this...
ReplyDeleteand def hope you stay safe as well...
ReplyDeletethx Bri~
DeleteThis is very sad! Yes, some people seem to have the gift of knowing what buttons to push! Not easy to ignore sometimes either.
ReplyDeletethanks for reading.
DeleteNot easy walking through the pain of losing the one we love. I read your 'anniversary' post. Feel that and this so much. And yes, some people know exactly what buttons to push.
ReplyDeletethank you! it's been a rough road, leaving the words here helps to keep moving forward.
DeleteWalking through the pain and loss is hard - but they keep telling us that farther along that path, the missing will turn to celebration of the time we had..........you have written this beautifully.
ReplyDelete"forevers that will never be spent"; that's the toughest one to deal with. I so want forever to be just that. I think we all do.
ReplyDeleteA wonderful--though sad--write.
Sad yes, but incredibly compelling...you've got us all rooting for you now!
ReplyDeleteSo sad but prevalent. Just remember that others may push the buttons but only you control what happens when it is pushed. Stay strong *hug*
ReplyDeletethe ache here felt...the new found absence of the break creates such the storm, you have expressed it wonderfully in this piece. ~ Rose
ReplyDeleteI felt this to the core it had a sense of despondency at first then a hope glimmered through
ReplyDeleteThe 'buttons' pressed are always the simplest when loss is involved so a powerful image to explore.
ReplyDeleteMuch is accumulated over one's life, sometimes the mind can go back, relive, dwell a little. Some things happen, I reacted in that way, now I'm on this path. Much of this poem parallels my mood more often than I would like to admit.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing this.
- Ravenblack
http://theotherdayplace.blogspot.com
Yup, we've all wasted time with people who are not worth it! Here speaketh the voice of experience hahaa x well written angst
ReplyDeleteHere's hoping your finding healing through this blog--I know I did through mine. Keep writing through the pain; you WILL come out stronger on the other side.
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