It doesn’t matter how smart you are
doesn’t matter how much you know.
It doesn’t matter how much you learn
or how much ‘work’ you do.
The thing that remains the same
for each and every one of us.
Is that when it hurts, it hurts, and really
there is nothing that you can do.
I know you’re gone and you’ve moved on
without a pause or even a breath.
I know you hurt me, I know that you lied
and that I’m probably better off.
I still miss the dreams I had
the ones I made with you.
I still miss our life and love
because for me all of it was real.
I don’t know when it ended for you
and I’ll never know that now.
You kept me guessing right up to the end
so much so that I doubt everything.
I don’t know what was real with you
I have no idea who you are.
I only know what it meant to me
and that is what I will mourn.
I can almost breathe in the daylight hours
except today, I’m here drowning in tears.
But I still cannot make it through the night
without waking to the pain of you not being here.
You left a hole in me that will never be filled
by anyone or anything else.
I told you once that if it wasn’t you
that I would never love anyone again.
I meant it then, I mean it now
I just can’t give away my heart.
Give that power to someone else
and let them break it at will.
I can’t see the point of any of it now
your lies changed everything for me.
There is nothing to remember, no ‘good times we had’
there is no comfort in any of it.
I still don’t understand so much of this
all of it happened so fast.
Well, for me it did anyway
I know that for you that’s not the case.
I’m lonely, I’m sad and these days hit me hard
and sometimes I just have to sit here and cry.
I don’t even wish you’d come back anymore
I just wish that my heart would stop breaking.