I can’t escape this feeling that I’m nothing
the feeling that there is nothing left for me.
I feel like I’ve lost everything I ever had
when the reality is that I lost what was never mine.
I can’t let go of this aching, driving pain
well, the reality is, it won’t let go of me.
It haunts me when I cannot sleep, it haunts me when I dream
I’m trying to not to let it take every bit of me.
I don’t know why I miss you, why I love you
I never could have meant that much to you.
I think you thought I was someone else, I know I thought you were
and I guess I miss the girl that never was.
I feel like I’m trapped inside this shell of someone
going through the motions of a life.
Trying to make it through each day and trying to run from here
trying to find some way to start again.
I know everyone has someone leave them
and they move on and start again with someone else.
But for me this was the end of the world and I’m broken
and I don’t ever want to feel this way again.
There’s no next time, no someone new for me
no perfect person who now I’m ready for.
There’s me who’ll live a life alone, trying to understand
why any of this happened in the first place.
I cannot give my heart away again
you weren’t the first but you surely are the last.
I don’t know how to do this and I always end up here
shattered and hollow and trying to ease the pain.