What’s striking is the irrelevance
of anything that gets in your way.
I can only say this now
as I have been on both sides.
I was once the one you wanted
the one who took all your time.
The one you gave all of your energy to
the one who was your world.
I was the one who you whispered to
as you stole away time on the phone.
I was the one you had inappropriate
moments with more than once.
Now I stand on the other side
where the view has certainly changed.
And the inappropriate things are with someone else
and this has all ‘been done’ to me.
I am the one who had to watch you
fall in love with someone else.
The one who had to hear you say
it’s not about you, it’s me.
It doesn’t matter who it’s about
when you are the one feeling it's affects.
The feelings and effects are quite different
when you stand on this side of things.
So maybe karma has done this to me
and maybe it was just you.
Doing what you do and being who you are
either way I am paying for my role.
The role I played in ending up here
when all I did was fall in love.
With the wrong girl at the wrong time
and I chose not to do the right thing.
I heard what I wanted to hear
and did what I wanted to do.
It was the first time I’d ever done that in my life
and it was a lesson I’ll never forget.
The guilt, the pain and the lack of being able
to look myself in the eye.
Changed me forever and took away from me
the way that I once stood with pride.
I had always done the right thing
even when it caused me such pain.
The one time I put myself before anyone else
and this is where I land…