I guess today had to be one of those days
those days when I just don’t feel very tall.
I feel a little bit like the absent shadow
that can’t be found on bright and sunny days.
It wasn’t even sunny, today it was dark and gray
but I started out with the highest hopes and dreams.
I ran until I couldn’t run anymore
and for five miles I walked the rest of the way home.
I was going to go and play those songs tonight
the ones that I have written since you left.
But I remember all too clearly the last time I played there
and how you disrespected me and I couldn’t face it today.
I couldn’t go and do this thing alone
and, of course, there wasn’t anyone to ask.
So I stayed here by myself and wandered off into a book
and passed the day quietly alone.
I battled hard today against the darkness
and where, on days like this, I usually go.
But today I kept my head above the waterline
still wrapped in sadness at least I know I did not fail.
I didn’t do the thing I wanted to do today
but I didn’t let the darkness take me down.
Down to the depth and bury me in the abyss of all this pain
and leave me used up and tossed no better than before.