Can you see her? I can’t see her either anymore
and I wonder where she has gone.
She was once visible and even transparent
she wore her heart on her sleeve.
She was sure, at least, of herself
she was pure in thought and deed.
She acted simply out of love
and this need she had to believe.
She believed in magic and ever after
she believed in fairy tales.
She was sure that dragons and fairies existed
but she now knows it was just pretend.
That grownups just can’t live like that
in worlds where dreams come true.
When the dream consists of others
and having to let them in.
It was so easy in my little room
where I could hide away with my heart.
But you knocked on the door and I let you in
and I’ve never dreamed out loud again.
Something changed in me that I didn’t understand
I thought that you loved me and that was enough.
But something died when I lived by your rules
and forgot to feed my heart.
Maybe you loved me once
but we were both horrible at this.
We didn’t know how to talk to each other
and we didn’t know how to hear.
I kept listening for the things that I needed to hear
instead what I heard was your need.
I let that become the only sound
that echoed through my ears.
You broke my heart early on in the game
and I should have stopped playing then.
It changed me forever, I was never the same
and looking back that was really the end.
When you can’t voice your needs because you know
that the outcome won’t be changed.
It’s time to pack your things and walk away
while you still have your pride.
I lost mine, I left it lying there
on the floor where I knelt before you.
Where I told you I loved you and swore to you
that I would always believe.
It doesn’t matter if I believed in you
you never believed in me.
I spent years and years waiting and wishing to feel
something that was never going to come.