Something fractured, broken
something forever changed.
To never again be the soul
that I once so dearly loved.
I’ve lost that innate smile
that lightness in my heart.
I’ve lost the will to dream those dreams
that moved me through each day.
I’m doing it, don’t get me wrong
moving through some life.
But not the one I wanted
it’s gone and that’s all there is.
I get it, I know, that’s life and it changes
and roll with it, I have.
But I can’t seem to get to a place
where this isn’t all there is.
I really just want to throw in the towel
but I’ve been sober for 13 days.
The fight is daily, the battle fierce
and my resolve is foreign to me.
I don’t really know where the fight is coming from
the determination to be more than this.
But it is carrying me quite literally
on newly formed muscle and wings.
Physical strength taking the place
of the heart that once fueled my soul.
Spirit gone yet something remains
but it is hollow and shallow now.
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