I don’t want to love you anymore
I don’t even want to like you and right now that is easier.
I can feel this, at the depth of my soul
what is happening is crystal clear.
All of this is digging at me, tearing at me
breaking me into smaller damaged pieces of myself.
Distance, disregard, disinterest and disdain
weigh heavily upon my worn and weary heart.
I am building up this wall of stone
against the emptiness of your absence.
I am crawling into the safety of myself
as my faith in you starts to fade.
The ice is thin, the branches breaking,
there is nothing firm on which to stand.
With a fiery vengeance I resent you
for giving me cause to feel this way.
Is this what remains of all that was built
and tended from the tiniest seeds?
I struggle to breathe and pray not to feel
and I search for a place to stand.