there is this unsettled lingering
of emotion rampant and strong.
anxious heartbeat waking me
throughout the night.
pulse racing and slowing
with no inherent sense of me.
I am spinning with feelings
that I cannot resolve.
fragments of words,
pictures of stories
that I have written of us.
too much, too deep,
you know exactly how I feel.
too intense, too raw
I know way too much about you.
how to find consonance
within this dissonance.
where I can find melody
and rhythm again?
is there a way out of the chaos
that has me almost paralyzed?
is there a road here
that I can take to find me again?
I dreamt us into some magical realm
where it would all fall into place.
where you would come to me
and walk into my arms.
you made me feel so wanted and needed
and in that I simply lost my mind.
but the reality now is brutally clear
and I must find a way to lay this down.
is there a way to know you on another plane
another space, another existence in time?
is there a way for me to feel sane again
or will this always be emotion unresolved?