I will not apologize for feeling you
the you that you showed me you were.
I will not beg forgiveness for speaking
the words that were in my heart.
I know that you cannot believe
that I feel the way I do.
I know that is probably the greatest
difference between you and I.
I believe, that’s what I do
and I do it to a fault.
I am taken in by tender words
and attentions paid to me.
I’m a sucker, a sap, I play the fool
I do it over and over again.
I always exclaim at the end of it all
that this will be ‘the last time’!
I can’t stop myself though when the feelings come
I can’t quiet them or make them behave.
I am shaken and taken and ripped open wide
at the thought of being seen.
I was taken by you and led
down the roads that you wanted me to see.
I took it all in and you took me
but I got too close for you.
I pushed against the boundaries
you gave me every reason to think that I could.
I listened when you told me
we should be honest about the truth.
I was wrong to trust and wrong to let
myself feel everything I did.
I am sitting here now just thinking
that I miss so many things.
I know it was mere moments in time
and that you probably don’t understand it still.
I hope that the passion and the depth that we shared
is something we both find again.