The Sucker, The Sap, The Fool

I will not apologize for feeling you

the you that you showed me you were.

I will not beg forgiveness for speaking

the words that were in my heart.

I know that you cannot believe

that I feel the way I do.

I know that is probably the greatest

difference between you and I.

I believe, that’s what I do

and I do it to a fault.

I am taken in by tender words

and attentions paid to me.

I’m a sucker, a sap, I play the fool

I do it over and over again.

I always exclaim at the end of it all

that this will be ‘the last time’!

I can’t stop myself though when the feelings come

I can’t quiet them or make them behave.

I am shaken and taken and ripped open wide

at the thought of being seen.

I was taken by you and led

down the roads that you wanted me to see.

I took it all in and you took me

but I got too close for you.

I pushed against the boundaries

you gave me every reason to think that I could.

I listened when you told me

we should be honest about the truth.

I was wrong to trust and wrong to let

myself feel everything I did.

I am sitting here now just thinking

that I miss so many things.

I know it was mere moments in time

and that you probably don’t understand it still.

I hope that the passion and the depth that we shared

is something we both find again.