where do you go to try yourself on
when your heart doesn’t know its own name?
when you’ve turned yourself inside out
and upside down in attempt to heal those wounds?
is there somewhere safe, somewhere warm
is there someone who holds you close?
or are you out there flailing wildly
hoping something will hold?
do you know what silence sounds like
as it falls down around your soul?
does it terrify you at your core
the thought of being alone?
there is something inherently evident
in the words and the phrases we choose.
to signify change and growth has occurred
and when it is time to learn.
feelings take hold at the center of you
shaking you from within.
challenging everything you ever thought
you knew about yourself.
uncomfortable, uneasy, restless
at the thought of the unknown.
the feeling of coming unhinged
or terrifyingly numb.
unknown, uncertain, unsure of it all
yet with certainty knowing one thing.
that something is wrong and crying out
that something has to change.