Trying to see clearly through this lens
but the tears keep blurring my sight.
I am trying to wind this story back
to the beginning and start again.
I want to see what happened
from a different point of view.
But the only view I have is mine
and it is cloudy and confused.
I wanted to be anonymous
no pictures, no last name.
Just words on pages, telling tales
letting feelings speak for me.
You came in like a whirlwind
and swept me off my feet.
Not once, but twice, we had to take
a step back from the intensity.
I should have known and should have run
and stayed away for good.
But I came back into the conversation
and listened much too hard.
I drank your words like an elixir
that was healing all of my wounds.
Clinging to them through long dark nights
when I was lying here alone.
I tried to do the right thing
and walk away with pride.
“Wait!” and I could not walk away
I thought you wanted me there.
I guess we just got caught up
let our weaknesses lead us astray.
It hurts so much because I honestly did
just get caught up in all that you said.
I felt some very deep, very real things
and I thought that you did too.
But again we have a very different idea
of what actually happened here.