sparkle fades

awakening from afternoon dreams

sweaty, shaken, rattled.

it’s those same dreams I always have

the ones that remind me of home,

the funny thing now is I am home

and they seemed even more real this time.

the chasing, the taunting, the shadowed eyes

and me running, running away.

 I miss you today, my distant one

I know you have gone for good.

gone from the space that you filled in my heart

gone with the safety you brought.

I feel your distance painfully

I feel all the mistakes that I made.

on afternoons such as this, in moments like these

I just want to hear your voice.

I felt safe when I left my words in your ears

when I left on them pages you read.

I believed that you cradled them in the crook of your arm

where they could safely fall asleep.

I miss you with a tender, bittersweet sting

that pierces that empty hole.

in my heart, where you touched me so softly

and then you went away.

with sweetness I think of you now

I do hope your smile shines.

you made me feel like I could

and I did for a while through your eyes.

you always sparkled in mine

perhaps just a little too bright.

so that now that you’re gone, in this darkness

the contrast is just too profound.