~ a going away present
safe travels ~
the unknown lies ahead
in steps that have yet to be taken.
knees tremble slightly
so I sit for a moment to pause.
on the edge, at the precipice
it will all change from here.
the waiting and wondering put to the test
be careful what you wish for.
dreams dreamt in the safety and comfort
of that cavern in my mind.
where I store away fears and weave
my ever intricate tales.
spinner of yarns, crafter of webs
they are collected within my hand.
placed where I want them lying safe
under my watchful eye.
my dreams, my words, secret things
are packed intimately into these bags.
they are all that I care to take on this journey
the only truth in me.
this is faith, this is leaping
knees shaking, no matter, it’s time.
the ticking hands on the clock that won’t pause
are forcing me to play my hand.
with every belief and dream that I hold
I inhale them deep into my chest.
the infusion of them into my heart
the armor that I will need.
I look at myself in the mirror
for the last time in this place.
the next time I see myself
everything will have changed.
memorizing the shape of me
the lines that define who I am.
so that if they shift in transit
I will know where they have to return.
the mask I wear to keep me safe
is one I made by hand.
it is fragile and can be turned
easily into something else.
so one last time and one last glance
there will be no looking back.
there is no looking over my shoulder
eyes straight ahead.
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