Inhaling Me

 

~ a going away present

 

safe travels ~

 

 

 

the unknown lies ahead

in steps that have yet to be taken.

knees tremble slightly

so I sit for a moment to pause.

on the edge, at the precipice

it will all change from here.

the waiting and wondering put to the test

be careful what you wish for.

dreams dreamt in the safety and comfort

of that cavern in my mind.

where I store away fears and weave

my ever intricate tales.

spinner of yarns, crafter of webs

they are collected within my hand.

placed where I want them lying safe

under my watchful eye.

my dreams, my words, secret things

are packed intimately into these bags.

they are all that I care to take on this journey

the only truth in me.

this is faith, this is leaping

knees shaking, no matter, it’s time.

the ticking hands on the clock that won’t pause

are forcing me to play my hand.

with every belief and dream that I hold

I inhale them deep into my chest.

the infusion of them into my heart

the armor that I will need.

I look at myself in the mirror

for the last time in this place.

the next time I see myself

everything will have changed.

memorizing the shape of me

the lines that define who I am.

so that if they shift in transit

I will know where they have to return.

the mask I wear to keep me safe

is one I made by hand.

it is fragile and can be turned

easily into something else.

 so one last time and one last glance

there will be no looking back.

there is no looking over my shoulder

eyes straight ahead.

 

~ ~ ~

 

never forget who you are...