Missing you and everything we ever were,
ever could have been.
Missing you and loving you
and hating you at the same time.
I’m bitter, resentful, and angry
and still so broken and hurt.
I’m trying just to forget you
but I can’t make it go away.
I can’t believe how easy it was
for you to walk away.
To move on so quickly and leave me here
and expect me to know what to do.
All this talk about choices
and how they are mine to make.
I don’t understand any of it
what choice did I really have?
You handed me a decision
and my only choice was this…
Here it is accept it
you are irrelevant here.
So now I’m just trying to stay alive
as I float, adrift, set ‘free’
Freedom is a prison cell when you don’t want it
a life sentence and nothing more.
I didn’t want this, I don’t want it now
but really my heart has died.
It will no longer wish for anyone
it will be safely locked and secure.
You did it, you broke free, got away from me
I hope it was worth it for you.
That for this moment for now, until you change your mind again
that this is what you want.