More alone than I have ever been
I find myself today.
Untouched, unheld, linked to nothing and no one
and bleeding from invisible wounds.
I’m trying like hell to let you go
I swear to god I am.
But the pull and the tear of this ever present ache
just keeps dragging me back again.
I’ve let go of everything I possibly can
and it never seems to be enough.
Something else happens that rips me in two
and it’s one more thing I have to give up.
People and places are becoming scarce
there seems to be nowhere that I can breathe.
I keep crawling deeper inside of myself
trying to hide the need.
I need something, I need someone,
just for a minute, a moment in time.
To touch me, to feel me, to let me feel them
to tell me I am still alive.
I am beginning to disappear
and no one will know I have gone.
Something will feel like it has changed
but everything will just move on.
There might be a memory, a word carved in stone
my name might be heard in the wind.
But time passes quickly and nothing remains
the past is simply the past.