Getting ready once again to pack up my belongings
to pack them into boxes and move away from here.
To leave this place and the memories
of the life that we once shared.
I am starting all over once again
I feel like I just did this.
I am going again to places unknown
like we did in the words of that song.
I am more alone than I have ever been
yet I still feel you as if you were here.
I am hoping that changing the scenery
will help me move away from this pain.
You are there when I sleep, there when I wake
this town should carry your name.
This was our home and this was our life
and I have to leave you behind.
I don’t know if I’ll tell you, I’m sure there is no point
I honestly doubt you would even care.
It seems it would just be some last shred of hope on my part
that you might actually feel something for me.
Someone just told me how strong I was
for embarking on this on my own.
I had to laugh a little at that
I never had a choice.
You left me without my consideration,
you left me without my consent.
You left me and all the decisions were yours
there was nothing I could say or do.
It would have been good to know after all of this time
that this was truly where you were.
Just don’t tell me again that it’s not about me
put some truth into some of those words.
Those pretty words that paint pictures
and wrap me up into you.
They are now the hollow and empty song
that I can’t silence in my aching heart.