The pain tears through me
with a force that leaves me breathless and shaking.
Tiny drops of blood leave a trail
from the broken pieces of my heart back to where we were.
You were the one I dreamed of
the one who lit my life with magic and fire.
You were the dream I had
before I ever knew your name.
Now you are gone and I am alone
more alone than I have ever been.
Now that I have loved you
I will never be the same again.
My heart cannot comprehend the fact
or understand why you have gone.
It can’t believe you don’t love me anymore
or why I have to be here now alone.
What did I not do?
Who did you want me to be?
Why was I not enough for you?
Do you really think this is not about me?
Of course it’s about me as much as it is you
my entire life is now changed.
You can say that you did what you needed to do
but still you did this to me.
The pain is searing, it wakes me at night
it hangs over, and chases me through the day.
I just can’t imagine my life without you
I’m just trying to get through today.