Today I woke up crying again
as I have every day for weeks.
Sleep evades me, my stomach turns
and my heart has shattered like glass.
My worst fear has come to pass
I am completely alone.
You have made your choices and said your goodbyes
and left me here on my own.
I am scared, I am broken, I am falling apart
nothing can ease this pain.
You fell out of love, it seems, a long time ago
and I thought we were working through things.
You walked away with ease and grace
you’ll never again look back.
If you did you’d see me standing here
trying to find my way out.
Screaming and scratching and clawing my way
to a place where this pain will cease.
Running from demons and ghosts in the night
who want to make it easy for me.
Dreaming of sharp things with shiny steel blades
of bottles with translucent light.
They could take me from here and numb all this pain
they could warm me throughout these long nights.
I don’t understand why you needed to leave
why I wasn’t worth the fight.
Whatever you’re chasing, whatever you need
I hope it is worth what you lost.