Time moves swiftly
in moments, lifetimes change.
Hours, minutes, seconds pass,
nothing will be the same again.
Now as I watch you sitting here
time is standing still.
So I can take in every second of it
and remember everything I feel.
I used to be able to touch you
across this table reach out my hand.
Now I sit here waiting for separate checks
and this evening to come to an end.
A plan has now been decided
a list of ‘to do’s” in each hand.
As I check off another thing on the list
I bury another piece of my heart in the sand.
I don’t know how to look at you
like you are no longer mine.
The memories are angry and screaming at me
they are not ready to die.
I don’t know how to not kiss you,
and lay down with you at each night’s end.
I don’t know how to not love you
but I guess in time I will learn.
I am broken and bleeding, I am raw and unhinged
I am small and I am oh, so tired.
I am trying to stand up tall and be strong
I am trying to find my way to the other side.