I need to erase you from my memory
from the walls and windows and the places that you linger
I need to delete you from my dreams
from the imaginings and wonderings that I cannot seem to let go
I need to be free of this pain of this ache
of this endless wanting and waiting
I need to be somewhere else
until the last of this pain goes away
This is the first time for feeling things, sober
with nowhere to run to and hide
The first time I’ve walked in the light of the day
with a ragged heart chained to my side
I need to chase you out of my dreams
they are haunting me now through the night
In them you wear a demon’s face
and do everything to tear me apart
These are my battles, my wars to wage
it’s not about you anymore
You simply brought vividly back to life
what I thought I had laid to rest
The fear that forever I will live life alone
that I will never ever be enough
That I love others too much and myself not enough
that I bring broken things back to life
I don’t know how to do it any other way
how to give any less of myself
But I think this is the last time I will walk down that road
or give my heart to anyone else
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