Something in me is forever changed
and it’s not who I want to be.
An innocence has been lost
it will never again live here.
The things I believed in were taken
the things I loved all gone.
Replaced with rage and anger and fear
and decisions of who was wrong.
I am different now, I rarely smile
at least not from the inside.
I move through the day just trying to breathe
it’s not even possible to hide.
The loss, the change, the missing pieces
the things that are now just gone.
The anger, the vicious hate that I feel
I just want to leave and move on.
I hate you, I do, what you did to me
I hate how much I believed.
I am sick and disgusted at the thought
of you and where you now live.
Does it ever even cross your mind
the things that you took from me?
Do you understand the depth, the breadth, the consequence
I doubt it, just so long as you are now free.
I hope freedom is all it’s cracked up to be
that the payoff was worth the cost.
I’m sure it is for you but don’t forget me
I am broken and beaten and lost.