Today there are a mix
of things tucked away in my bag.
Today there are celebrations
and there are things that hurt.
I achieved success today
in a challenge I set for myself.
In a goal that I set forth
to change the way I feel.
I changed my life, my size, my shape
I changed my own existence.
I actually look like a different person
than I used to be.
I am stronger and healthier
and let’s just say it, thinner.
I can run faster and farther
and accomplish things that I never could before.
Today is a day of memories too
as yesterday ‘I got mail’.
I got a message from your mother
and we haven’t spoken for months.
She told how much she missed me
how she still didn’t understand.
But that I would always be considered
a part of the family that is ‘no longer mine’.
She told how much she thought of me
and thanked me for loving you.
She said she could not lose me
that I mattered too much to her.
It rips and tears at the strings of my heart
when I think about how much I lost.
How do you stay friends with your ex’s mom
when the ex did to me what you’ve done?
It’s nice to hear the words that she wrote
nice to know how much she cares.
And in spite of all that happened
that who I am was seen.
So today I’m going to find the good
in those words and hold it close.
And I’m going to celebrate my victory
and be proud of what I have done.