How many ways can you lie to yourself
to keep the pain from tearing you apart?
Are there words are there whispers are there memories
just to allow you to breathe?
Do you remember the person that you once loved
would you know them now in the light?
Or would you pass each other on a crowded street
like two strangers who’ve never met?
I feel sick, I feel lost, I feel broken and torn
at the thought of who you’ve become.
Did I ever even know you at all
I can’t remember any part of our life.
You are far away now with the one that you wanted
you just couldn’t wait to leave.
Chasing something you never even knew that you had
if only you’d looked to see.
I gave you too much, gave you all that I had
a mistake I will never make again.
There is so much regret, so much pain I can’t bear
I can’t wait to leave this place.
I want to run and kick and rage and scream
but there is no one here to hear.
I want to be done with this hurt and this ache
but it just keeps coming up again.
I wish I’d never met you, wish I’d never seen
that smile that stole my soul.
I wish I could forget you, wish that I was free
wish that I could salvage my heart.