I’ve stopped looking into mirrors
my reflection no longer shows.
There seems to be a line drawn
down through the center of me.
One side is familiar, vaguely
I’d know her if we passed on the street.
I’d touch her hand, and hold her close
and recall how we were once friends.
The other side is shadowed and hollow
and lurking around in the dark.
With a voice that is hoarse and broken
spewing venomous words from its mouth.
I am torn apart in the battle
they are tearing me limb from limb.
My demons are fighting my angels
weapons for destruction in hand.
I am reeling and spiraling and coming undone
as the battle within rages on.
From the outside you’d never know it
but inside I am bloody and worn.
Every thought comes to me in images
pictures, tattered and torn.
Images thoughts and scattered words
represent nothing anymore.
I am losing connection to places,
to people, to things, to me.
As half of me stands here bleeding and raw
and the other half can’t find its way home.
*For dversepoets.com Translucent Poetics: Writing Spoken Word
*For dversepoets.com Translucent Poetics: Writing Spoken Word
Wow! Really powerful stuff. This drew me in immediately and kept me there. So good job with momentum. I could hear it. Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteThis is one of those hold your breath poems. And I did.
ReplyDeleteyou capture these inner fights well..sometimes hard to connect these broken pieces again...hope you manage..
ReplyDeleteWow, you definitely have shown the workings of the mind, thoughts feuding with thoughts, feelings with feelings. I hope that the way 'home' is found! Powerful stuff here.
ReplyDeletedef full of emotion....and love the end...i have been there...that split between wanting to go home but....its all a big swirl in the storm of the interior....
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