Listening to the soft quiet sounds of the rain
as it pours heavily down around me.
That feeling of being washed clean
of everything becoming new.
The days have passed quite slowly of late
in a long and listless blur.
In solitary moments of reflection
and the pain that seeing brings.
I’ve quieted the busy, the harried and crazed
the distractions all laid down.
The illusions and places to hide all gone
I am staring at nothing but me.
I hate this place every time I arrive here
and fight like hell not to pause.
But here is where I need to stay
until I can see myself clearer than you.
I need to see through the darkness
to want to stand in the light.
To want something of me to keep me here
or I will fade in the wake of you.
You were what I was fighting for
and in doing so killed off myself.
Left an empty soul on the side of the road
as I sped recklessly down that road.
As is bound to happen things fell apart
systems eventually break down.
But with nothing in reserve I could not carry on
and am still abandoned here on this road.
It’s pouring rain down upon me today
the earth beginning to flood.
I feel the urge just to walk for miles
until I am soaked, bathed, new.
I have been treading water for some time now
trying to stay above the line.
I feel like surrender is imminent
just exhale and sink within.