It’s time to put this ‘self’ on hold
and try to find some balance.
It’s time to focus solely
on something else but me.
I don’t have any more broken words
or questions that need answers.
I’m never going to understand
why you did the things you did.
Now the focus is me
and the things I am about to achieve.
The hard work and the hours
are about to engage again.
I am about to dive into
the deepest end of the pool.
I am about to see
if I can truly swim.
I’m challenged right now
on so many levels.
And I have laid challenges
out in return.
Chaos is not my best state of mind
yet chaos is about to ensue.
With everything slightly beyond my control
I am going to have to stay calm.
I am going to have to rise above
and be who I want them to be.
To embody all of the characteristics
that I want to see in return.
I want to do things differently
to be stronger than I have ever been.
I want to rise above fear and insecurity
and to fly on widespread wings.
This is the challenge and this is my time
it is truly all about me.
Not what I feel and not what I need
but who I want to become.