At the starting line...

It’s time to put this ‘self’ on hold

and try to find some balance.

It’s time to focus solely

on something else but me.

I don’t have any more broken words

or questions that need answers.

I’m never going to understand

why you did the things you did.

Now the focus is me

and the things I am about to achieve.

The hard work and the hours

are about to engage again.

I am about to dive into

the deepest end of the pool.

I am about to see

if I can truly swim.

I’m challenged right now

on so many levels.

And I have laid challenges

out in return.

Chaos is not my best state of mind

yet chaos is about to ensue.

With everything slightly beyond my control

I am going to have to stay calm.

I am going to have to rise above

and be who I want them to be.

To embody all of the characteristics

that I want to see in return.

I want to do things differently

to be stronger than I have ever been.

I want to rise above fear and insecurity

and to fly on widespread wings.

This is the challenge and this is my time

it is truly all about me.

Not what I feel and not what I need

but who I want to become.