Showing posts with label home. Show all posts
Showing posts with label home. Show all posts

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Seeking Summer's Reprieve

Virginia Beach
 
 
 
the air is thick, heavy
and I can barely stand the weight of it.
it covers me like a cloak
like a fabric that has woven itself into me.
this east coast shore holds no relief
nothing seems to ease the pressure.
as evening falls and I walk to the sea
I beg her to cool my skin.
she offers me tiny waves, a weak current
and a sky full of dusky grey.
I walk to the water’s edge
naked feet yearning for the lick of a cooling wave.
a trickle, laps up onto the sand
and slowly dribbles away.
the pressure begins to build again
as thunder claps and bangs.
loud crashes and menacing booms
and a threatening lightning strike.
breathlessly I await
the imminent roaring downpour.
I look to the sky, searching,
for the break that will open wide.
I want to raise my hands and arms
as the flood pours down and quenches this ache in me.
the first sprinkles hit like kisses on my skin
anticipation peaks at the touch.
then suddenly, the clouds move, the sun winks
and the heat is upon me again.
 
straight to the airport I go from here
I am heading west.
to cool breezes and afternoon strolls
and not a hint of humid air.
for waves that crash with intention
of covering you in their wake.
for sand and sea and sky and stone
and a soothing like nothing else.
 
 
 
Laguna Beach, Ca
 


Friday, July 12, 2013

perhaps


I woke up in tears again this morning

perhaps it’s this process of going home.

to a place where I no longer live

where so many memories linger still.

perhaps it’s that sobriety has settled in

and I’m feeling everything again.

a little unprotected, most certainly raw

and it washes over me in the quiet dawn.

perhaps it’s that I dreamt of you

just before the alarm bell rang.

I saw your sweet smile staring at me

and the words ‘little one’ fell from my lips.

perhaps it’s just that I miss you

and the voice you used talking to me.

you were there filling up the holes in my heart

and now the only one here is me.

perhaps it’s that change is imminent

and I will probably be moving on.

to another place I’ve never been

completely on my own.

seeking beauty and challenges

because somehow there just aren’t enough here…

and happy has not found me yet

so I am going in search of her.

far from the ocean where I ground myself

so perhaps, the fear is there.

that I will become dry inside as I did all those years

where I lived too far from her.

perhaps it is just that I bleed too much

that I feel too many things.

that I wear my heart like a badge on my chest

I don’t know how to be any other way.

perhaps today it’s just that I wish

I had you to tell these things to.

you made me feel heard, you made me feel seen

and perhaps I just miss you..