Today

Today

it would be far too easy

to crawl into a darkened corner

and drown at the bottom of a bottle

Today

it would be simple

to slip into the abyss

and mourn

Today

there are so many reasons

to curse the sunlight

and fall away

But Today was the day

you were born

Today

you are no longer

here in this place

But Today

in no way

are you gone

You linger in the quiet places

in the laughter and in dreams

And You are the reason

I am here

So Today

is a day

we will celebrate

Today

is a day

we will smile

Today

 is a day

that the memories

will remind us to open our wings

Today

is a day

for letting you

be alive with us again

~for my muse~

Emotion Unresolved

for me, you are always going to be

the dream that I can’t wake up from.

creeping in as night falls upon me

and dancing away at dawn.

you will always be magic in my memory

because that’s all you ever were.

something that I could not understand

that I could only feel.

your voice will always linger

on the edges of my mind.

singing to me of passion and faith

and whispering comforting sounds.

you will always bring a smile

that lights me up from inside.

you made me laugh with a genuine innocence

and look forward to waking each day.

you made me feel alive

like I had not felt in years.

I wanted to write every word

that existed in the world for you.

you challenged me to think in ways

that I had not ever considered.

and pushed me to create outside of the walls

I had built around myself.

you flattered me with your attention

and it was a beautiful thing to feel.

wanted and needed and necessary

I was moved to sing for you.

words that came from my heart

I just wanted you to know.

that you had touched me and changed me

it was really as simple as that.

I thought that I had fallen in love

with you and who you are.

but I was never given the chance to see

if any of it was real.

now you are gone and I will never know

this is all just a memory now. 

for me you are and will always be

 emotion unresolved.