It seems these days
have become a blur
Little changes
from day to day
The world I see is fuzzy
as if frost covers the glass
The sounds have all become muted
as if something covers my ears
I can feel myself slipping
into dark corners
Hovering on the edges
of an existence fading away
I long for little
and wish for even less
I am disappearing
into the center of myself
It’s dark down deep inside
the frosty glass letting in only a soft glow
I can see shadows and have visions
but I know they are only illusions
I live in dreams
smoky representations of things I once loved
I live in imaginary places
far from the reality of here
I want to be numb and distant
away from conscious connection
I want to be gone
from this miserable state
I want to melt
the frost on the glass
But I am frozen solid
and still
